no i'm not religious, but i was helping these people out before i had to leave town so suddenly, so i figured i'd get them at least started. it needs more work, i know, but i'm taking a break from it and i'm sure something will come to me over the weekend.
just heard from one of my friend's kids last night - seems he wrecked yet another vehicle, fucking himself up royally, and he musta been drunk because the cops had to call the kids. damn i feel for those kids, but i don't wanna get all wrapped up in that. i was thinking about visiting him next year, but lemme just tell ya right now: there are no sparks and i'm not in the mood to fight off a(nother) friend who's trying to get in my pants. god knows i'm the loneliest fucker alive, but i don't sleep with somebody just because they're there. i wish i could! i'd have lots more sex than i do now! (hint ANYTHING plus 0 = more) but sheesh, some guys are just friends. and he's good looking and all. loves to party. good sense of humor. i've known him forEVer, but no. i don't get hot when i hear his voice. there's no chemical reaction when i think about him. it just isn't there. you know, that special something that excites you about a person? i mean, i LIKE him, he's nice. he's my friend. he's a little messed up in the head from all his wrecks (brain damage a bit) and all the meds he's on for broken parts that are still broken, but he can still carry on a conversation. he's really a wild person too, which is kinda scary, but he's got nice kids. i think he's basically a good guy, but just not gonna be my guy. it's sad too. i mean, like with my soon2B-ex, i coulda been having a good ol'time fuckin his brains out and all, but i just wasn't into it. not like i'm frigid--- well maybe a little with him cuz i really hated him, he hit me way too much over the years and well, sex always hurt, but anyway --- i'm gonna go do chores or something. fill out rebate shit for my cell phone & ethernet card LMAO. check out the young cable guy my mom's hassling right now. *hehe*
note: i'm going to put up links, i swear i am
posted by y2kira @ 11:27 AM
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