100% y2k-compliant, 93.82% bitch

last week a couple of things happened. first, let me say that a lot of people (online and otherwise) are talking about their dreams. which makes me really happy i registered dreaming4ever.com and also motivates me to get working on it. also, i got both my books, Intuition and The Dream Game (which i already own) from BDalton online. it's strange, but they refused to ship to a po box, then when i gave my street address it accepted my order. now why wouldn't they ship to a po box when they're using the post office? they don't use ups. but anyway, i got a book at home, then the next time i checked my po box, i had something too big for the box.... yup it was the other book. my real address was crossed off and the po box was written on there. DUH isn't that strange?

also i was on my period over the weekend. yeah, i know, it's a yucky subject for everyone, but it's not a good time either, but it's especially bad because i have such an incredibly bad hormone imbalance that i'm nearly incapacitated for 3-5 days, and longer if i over-selfmedicate. you can guess what that means. not only that, but the weather was crappy and i did not accomplish a god damn thing. or any other thing for that matter. i was in a horrible mood today so decided to come home at 3:30. fuck it nobody else was there, except one atty on the phone (constantly!) and one other atty who didn't feel too good :( i swear that office is the sickest bunch of people i have ever seen. someone is ill every week. and there are only 9 of us. i haven't been feeling good either - i ran out of lortabs - i ate them all when mr.x was aggravating me one weekend and since i've run out i've had heart palpitations. at first they were strong and painful and they really scared me. i read a bit online about it saying that lortab withdrawals can last 7-10 days, but that the first 3 were the worst. well i'm not addicted, i only had a bottle of 20, which lasted me over a month anyway, not to mention that i gave some away. so i'm not all that bad off. some people take these things for years, but anyway, back to ME ------ well they started to fade after the first day, but i still get them and it's been 7 days. why am i getting them? am i overly dehydrated because of my period? maybe, i'm hoping that's all it is. i drank a pot of tea today (HERBAL, DUDE!) and a quart of water. i ate an orange and a salad. i brought a piece of candy home for juju. i had opened it and had it in my hand and i said, no i'm not going to eat this and i put it back and gave it to her. oh yeah i had some popcorn *hehe* almost forgot that part.

well anyway i'm worried about my health. i guess that's all i have to say about that. i need to clean out my car and vacuuuum it before the sun goes down. somebody write me something, send me a dream or something. oh, if any of you have database experience, please email me. i've got some, but need a few pointers. thx!

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there has to be a way for me to get better without going to

posted by y2kira @ 4:55 PM