today i got the "answer" to my "complaint." even though my atty told ian he didn't have to answer, he did, just to make a point of putting it on record that i'm not perfect. thank you so very fucking much. on the other hand, he's offered to pay for everything in my life, except alimony, which i don't fucking have anyway....
AND MY STAPLE GUN WOULDN'T WORK TODAY.
what the fuck is going on? i don't understand it. i'm entering this off my D drive right now cuz i can't get online w/my C drive, not in IE or netscape.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
OH GOD NOW THE BEEPING NOISE. I FUCKING UNINSTALLED THE FUCKING WINFAX CRAP! i have to go now before my computer crashes.....
FUCK ME!
spent 8 hours trying to make my color printer work yesterday. felt like i was gonna puke. but it works. i'm not
even going to say what was wrong with it!
juju got her shots today & jakie lost his first tooth!
but i've been BAD....there was something i wanted to do today, and i just didn't get it done! man, i am the worst procrastinator. i always wait til the last minute and then "something comes up," at which point a lame ½ass effort is all i have time to muster. i suck!~
yesterday
MY DOG CAME BACK!!!!
ok so guess what suddenly decided to work?!! and i scanned in a pic for my postcard advertisements, and guess what suddenly ran out of ink? and when i refilled the ink, guess what suddenly discontinued printing correctly?
my scanner fucking DIED. it works but my computer can't find it. i've installed it twice. i know, i should just do it again, but why is it that when you perform the exact same thing repeatedly, it doesn't work until the
ninth time? why doesn't it just work the first time? what is different about the third and ninth times? i'm pissed. and now i can't find the specs on it to see whether or not this other scanner i could get for $60 will be as good (if not better hehe). "You're Gone! You're Target Practice, You Fucker!!!!"
:-Þ
ok ladies go vote for
Emmanuel !!!!!
The site http://y2kira.8k.com/ has been deleted!
ok so i went to adjust my monitor and accidentally pressed one of the preset color settings, and now it's got a stripe down the left side that is different color. just like when you drop your tv, ya know? so anyways, i switched monitors and this one WILL NOT be set at 800x600. the screen gets tiny and when i expand it with the setting buttons it
still doesn't fill the screen. (time to get a new monitor).
so i'm not sure if this page is even viewable at 800x600 because of that. i'm set higher and i like stuff at that resolution. i'll have to align the back layer to the right.
damn i love this pic of jerry cantrell. which was taken by my friend
moon. the person who's using this photo (and quite a few others) has a disclaimer up that she does
not have permission to use these photos, and to
write her if you are offended, which we've both done several times, with no reply and no change in the photos.
ok just heard from my webhost, and they are indeed having a
ploblem. he said all would be fixed soon, and he's been in contact with different companies and staff members...... like i'm the president or something. ok so, must find a way to incorporate my blog into my index so i don't have this huge dumb page laying around....
gave the 2 vibrators back to ian yesterday in a bag. he didn't say anything today. i'm sorry, but i don't like having sex with equipment. i mean, i
love gadgets!!!! and i
love electronics even more!!!! but it's not like a person. i like real things. i admit i
have had a lot of tension lately, but when i tried to use it, it HURT! and a battery fell out. anyways,
he bought them and he kept them in his drawer when we were together, so
he should have them.
i didn't even know about the 2nd one until he moved out! ....(?)
ok so now i CAN'T log in w/cuteftp. it's
all fucked up.....
[hammer hammer hammer] heh heh
ok so i'm only allowed to be logged in once concurrently, but I'M NOT LOGGED IN. Þ
i can log in w/cute ftp or dw4, so WHAT's THE BIG DEAL ya weenie?
well i tried electrolysis. woo-hoo. needles....
anyway it's the 3rd day and my eyebrows are still looking skimpy & snazzy~
ok so a friend from 20 years ago called me and told me someone tried to kill him the other day. he has also been in a bunch of car wrecks and takes tons of pain meds because of it. he was pretty damaged in some of those wrecks. i wonder what he's going to make of his life. i worry about his kids.
well i really need to get a job. have to start looking. elance is charging now :(
WOW!
i won $1 from freelotto
and 2 radios from some other place. yeah had to sign up for their crap and cancel before i'm billed, but i'm really good at that. ~lmao
TODAY'S AN ELEVEN!
???
read colors & numbers by louise l. hay....
ok so i
really need to edit this template. and a few other things.
man oh man what a week! i really wanted to call into halcyon's show today but was
way too busy. had to tape the last episode of Star Trek Voyager for my future-ex-husband. spent all day at the library researching foundations that grant money to non-profit orgs in this state. it's so much fun to copy down addresses that have already been typed. why the fuck can't they provide this shit on CD? hey, maybe they'd pay me to put it on one ('specially since the fuckin' book was from '97). god, when i moved here they had 1990 phone books. yeah~
anyway, whew~ in Star Trek, seven & chikotay are seeing each other and someone from the future comes in and tells her that she's gonna die and it will hurt him, so the next day she tells him she doesn't want to see him anymore because he might get hurt if something happens to her. and he says that he can't shut off his emotions and loving someone is always risky, but well worth it. kinda like the situation we've all been dealing with this week, only nobody from the future bothered to tell us shit.
another odd thing: i lost a million dollars today. only i didn't really have it. you see, i have a huge painting by Edmund C. Tarbell, that i inherited strangely enough when my sister died (yes, of cancer) at 24, and i've been wanting to sell it. so i started calling around. a collector called me and told me it would be worth many thousands of dollars, but i began to look closely and couldn't tell if it was really paint under there. i told him to investigate, which he did. he called me back to say that the milwaukee art museum still has the painting, but sells repros of it, so that's what i've got. and then he threw in, "by the way, a painting by Tarbell as large as that would be worth well over a million dollars." i had to grit my teeth not to cry. all this time (7 yrs) i thought it was really a painting.
my future-ex had to remind me that i didn't really lose $1mil because i never had it. again, much like little life's lesson of the past week.
i wonder what june has in store for us...
THE INFAMOUS APRIL 21st
My friend Lisa went to see Jerry Cantrell that night, but her dinner made her sick, so her & her date left before he came on. Personally i woulda hucked right there and stayed for Jerry, as attractive as i'm sure that would be...... but anyway--
Here's how my April 21st went. i got up early, started sorting out the recycling (we do not have trash pickup) and was planning to take out the trash. I was also doing laundry and had the kids doing some chores (mostly they were playing as it was really nice out).
Ian drank a 12-pack of beer and a few strays he found in the fridge, then refused to let me drive him to the store and came home with an 18-pack. We had already been in one fight with me crying and i had called the police when he was gone to ask what i can do. they said call 911. yeah right.
so then he comes back and i hear screams from the bedroom (screen door opens to the porch and i was out front). all my kids screaming for me to help jake. 204-lb ian sat on jake and hit him. i called 911 dammit! so jake gets away and ian chases him outside and rips his shirt cuz he can't open the door and run at the same time. don't ask about chewing gum... so the cops get there 20 mins later and everyone has calmed down. he couldn't even stand up and they did nothing but run his ID, at which point he went inside grabbed his brew and disappeared out the back door. mind you this is 12:40 in the afternoon.
the cops made me leave which i did. i came back monday to find ian drunk and the couch and carpet soaked with something very ammonia-smelling. a table was knocked over, my plant was dead and the fan was broken off its stand.
i filed for divorce on tuesday and he was served saturday.
he is now staying at "wedge's" house (his drummer).
the day after he was served, i circled want ads in the paper, finished the kitchen floor, put the stove, fridge and table/chairs back in the kitchen and moved the old couches out and put the new ones in the living room. my house looks nice!
i'm off to my attorney's office ~
