i had a really shitty week last week. started a new job only to find out they hired some 80-yr old woman permanently only to keep me temp. that's ok i'm not sure i wanna be there forever LOL--- had BAD stomach problems, designed a site for someone only to find out that IT LOOKS LIKE CRAP because what is supposed to be 785 pixels wide is apparently 1100 or some shit, FUCK -the software refuses to reduce the size either - he didn't like it fuck i hope he doesn't get someone else to do it. i wanna do it, even if i start over. no big. and yes i saw my "design" site and it too looks like a pile of fuck at 800x600. can't we just force people to have larger res? hehe i'm so bad.
anyway at least now i know why nobody even responds to my resumé -- once they see my gawdawful site they probably don't think i'm worth the time of day. DAMN!
just cleaned out nearly 300 emails out of my inbox
damn that felt good!
partied too much this weekend god i LOVE beer but unless a good friend drops by w/a 12er of corona, there's really no reason to drink anymore. just takes my energy away :(
MUST begin a schedule and stick to it
MUST do my taxes
MUST finalize this divorce
MUST get a job i like
MUST redesign at least 4 of my websites, including this one!
MUST go to bed right now LMAO!!!!!
nitie nite ppl
sleep tight!
last week a couple of things happened. first, let me say that a lot of people (online and otherwise) are talking about their dreams. which makes me really happy i registered
dreaming4ever.com and also motivates me to get working on it. also, i got both my books, Intuition and The Dream Game (which i already own) from BDalton online. it's strange, but they refused to ship to a po box, then when i gave my street address it accepted my order. now why wouldn't they ship to a po box when they're using the post office? they don't use ups. but anyway, i got a book at home, then the next time i checked my po box, i had something too big for the box.... yup it was the other book. my real address was crossed off and the po box was written on there. DUH isn't that strange?
also i was on my period over the weekend. yeah, i know, it's a yucky subject for everyone, but it's not a good time either, but it's especially bad because i have such an incredibly bad hormone imbalance that i'm nearly incapacitated for 3-5 days, and longer if i over-selfmedicate. you can guess what that means. not only that, but the weather was crappy and i did not accomplish a god damn thing. or any other thing for that matter. i was in a horrible mood today so decided to come home at 3:30. fuck it nobody else was there, except one atty on the phone (constantly!) and one other atty who didn't feel too good :( i swear that office is the sickest bunch of people i have ever seen. someone is ill every week. and there are only 9 of us. i haven't been feeling good either - i ran out of lortabs - i ate them all when mr.x was aggravating me one weekend and since i've run out i've had heart palpitations. at first they were strong and painful and they really scared me. i read a bit online about it saying that lortab withdrawals can last 7-10 days, but that the first 3 were the worst. well i'm not addicted, i only had a bottle of 20, which lasted me over a month anyway, not to mention that i gave some away. so i'm not all that bad off. some people take these things for years, but anyway, back to ME ------ well they started to fade after the first day, but i still get them and it's been 7 days. why am i getting them? am i overly dehydrated because of my period? maybe, i'm hoping that's all it is. i drank a pot of tea today (HERBAL, DUDE!) and a quart of water. i ate an orange and a salad. i brought a piece of candy home for juju. i had opened it and had it in my hand and i said, no i'm not going to eat this and i put it back and gave it to her. oh yeah i had some popcorn *hehe* almost forgot that part.
well anyway i'm worried about my health. i guess that's all i have to say about that. i need to clean out my car and vacuuuum it before the sun goes down. somebody write me something, send me a dream or something. oh, if any of you have database experience, please email me. i've got some, but need a few pointers. thx!
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there has to be a way for me to get better without going to
ok so i've spent the ENTIRE weekend so far scanning photos and other stuff for personal use. I'M SO HAPPY! it's been so long since i've scanned stuff and i always have things to scan.
i've also been thinking a lot and coming up with some damn good thoughts. .... one of which is this: i spend my money on lots of small-priced stuff. and that's how it gets frivoled away. what i need to do is be a penny-pinching bitch, and save a bit, then spend my money on more expensive things. I could do it. I need to do it. I deserve the things that cost a couple thousand dollars, instead of 452 things that cost 7 dollars, assuming the total cost is the same over the same period of time..... do you see where i'm coming from?
also i think my free stats people are damn nearly outta business, or they just hate me. time to update my template, huh!
; )
anyway, i also did a ton of laundry, mended quite a few things, including my matress pad cover thingie and a sleeping bag that was ripped almost beyond repair. AND i sewed together a piece of fabric that i'm going to use to cover the bottom area of my bathroom closet where the water heater is. there are a bunch of shelves above the little water heater and then there's the water heater, where you can see the back of the shower and a bunch of crap that doesn't look good. i'm going to "finish" it by covering it with some fabric gathered at the top & bottom, much like a curtain, and some dowels that will go into the closet. it will look good when i'm done i tell ya. well i'm gonna read some of my favorite blogs IF THEY'VE POSTED ANYTHING LATELY :-Þ and then i'm going to watch MAD TV. see ya~
Jish asked me to say HI! to my
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