100% y2k-compliant, 93.82% bitch

ok so yesterday was a fucked up monday. i lost ALL my kids shot records and called at 10 am to Dr. Byrd's office in SC to have them faxed up here, but do you think they did it? i'll give you one guess. i lost a whole day at work because of the slowness of their fucking office staff. god how do those people keep their jobs?

posted by y2kira @ 5:51 AM 0 comments

some people will never cease to amaze me.

on another note, i saw an ad for "ice jeans" on the side of a bus, and i swear the model in the ad was pambo. can this be? i thought god she's not really desperate for money, so why is she doing some dumb ad?, but then i thought, 'it must be her line of clothing...." yeah, it bet that's it!

posted by y2kira @ 8:20 AM 0 comments

ok i'm sorry for not posting for so long ---if there's even anybody reading...... if there is, believe me you are greatly appreciated! now lemme tell you about my new job. first of all, let's review: i'm still not moved out of my house and the drive up here is killer, i had pulled my back out TWICE in early august filling huge bags and taking them to storage in the southern heat and my knee wouldn't stop hurting. i just wasn't motivated. and living with my mom is quite another story i will have to tell you about later. i got here on the 9th of august and started work on the 13th. one of the guys that i was supposed to be working with aka making sure he got something done, had quit. i, of course, got his computer WOOHOO my big 21 inch screen is cool. i have to remember things look bigger on it and so same resolution at home is much smaller. gotta design with that in mind from now on. ok so he's got lots o' programs on there, some of which he deleted NO BIG we all know i'm the software whore so i'm up and runnin' in no time. there's tons of shit installed on there. now this attorney hired me to get something done on the website. while i was packing etc he got some college student, who i now realized just graduated from high school, to flat code a bunch of sites, using what he thinks were "includes" AND FRAMES into one big fucking mess, which i now have to deal with because he paid for it so he wants to get some fricken use out of it before we dump it. HOWEVER he wants to make a brochure based on the website and send out a 200-300 piece mailng to target clients (who are new technology/software companies nonetheless), and, like it or not, when people go to the site, they will surely leave without filling out the form because the site looks like crap. now, i designed a template last week, which he didn't like. then me & this other atty were supposed to work on the site friday & monday, but low and behold on friday night he (boss) comes to my desk and says he hates everything and to stop working on it. then monday i work my ass off but he decides he wants gears. so i stop what i'm doing and try to put some gears in there. it looks like all hell and i increase the stroke of 3 concentric circles to like 15 or some wild shit just to cover the rough edges of the splice.....and of course when he sees THAT, he's definitely not happy. he didn't understand i was in the process of doing something, not making a presentation to him with my finished work. ANYWAY i worked at home and came up with these gears (note: i had to spend like 2-3 hours touching up this photo for use -- AT HOME without being paid). ok so i finish the new site before he comes in and i'm all proud of myself because it looks good and i'm proud of it. i would even show it to cocky. that's how good i'm feeling about myself. so he comes in and i show him, or he noses over to my desk more like (which is ok) and he says he wants to use the green site. i'm like so insulted. so i said something or other and he totally goes off on how he paid "Fred" 18 hundred dollars to do this other site and we're going to use it. i told him he wasted his money and "that wasn't my fault." he proceeded to get on the phone for a while then call a meeting with me and another guy there to talk about the site. this other guy's job apparently is to surf the internet, chat on IM and listen to MP3s all day. oh yeah, and go get stuff to eat. i made the comment that someone told me their dog threw up something that looked better than the website and i guess that wasn't a good thing to say. you have to realize that this is a start-up thing and if it doesn't make money neither do i. i feel like the whole future of this business is depending on me, because if that site looks bad when people go there, they will just click somewhere else. and besides, i know what to do. i know what needs to be done. but he won't let me do it. he's so ...???? backwards maybe? he hired me to build websites and that comes with a fair amount of consulting. unless he's got a design team or internet specialist or director of the website department, then i'm basically the expert there. and i'm being treated like a 12-yr-old. in fact i bet a 12-yr-old could build a better website on geocities. i haven't taken a lunch break since i've been there, and i stay the extra hour anyway (even though i was told it would be 7-3:30 i stay 7-4). last week he came by my desk twice and kept me til 4:20, which mean i don't get home til around 6. i only have to drive 10 miles or so to get the kids, then drive home, but the traffic is unthinkable. and he paid some ainhole 1800 bucks to fuck up my life, and i make a site that kicks its ass IN ONE DAY and i get shit for it. how about 1800 dollars, hmmmm? i got so upset i couldn't even think. i kept looking at the same piece of paper and my screen, trying to see whether i had made the corrections or not, and i was so shook up i couldn't even tell. talk about corporate america stifling my creativity!!! WWJD - what would jerry do? tell me what you think: please take the survey to the right and please be honest. or you can email me your comments. THANK YOU!!!

posted by y2kira @ 5:06 PM 0 comments

OMG am i going multiple or is it a fake????!!!

posted by y2kira @ 7:41 PM 0 comments

ok i worked my ass off yesterday and actually got all my files & desk stuff packed. god at 5 pm i went by the grocery store for a cold one and the big electric flashing sign at the pharmacy said it was 104. shit. it was too fucking hot to drink a cold one when i got home - sunny delight & ginger ale and plenty of ice for me. (then a cold one *hehe*). i planned to leave this morning & register the kids for school mañana, then come back on the weekend. but i packed up the fucking "doctor forms" and the files w/doctor's signature in them (crap!). i'm not paying a dime for someone to say, "yeah your kid's fine, here's my sig." fuck that. god knows all the green snotty faces i saw when i went to school. all the open-mouthed coughing and spewing, fuck me runnin' !!! my kids are fine.

ian better have gotten boxes. he asked me to stay so he could say goodbye to the kids when he came home this morning and he's oh- it's only 21 minutes after the hour. hope he got more boxes. god my storage is packed. gonna have to get a truck over labor day (joy!) and probably get a storage unit up there somewhere FUCK. as you can see, i'm so incredibly looking forward to this experience. besides the face that i had a nightmare someone was trying to kill me (fuck you with that supernova comment you little punk) and then jake dreamed the same thing. must be stress.

on another note, i just read about people getting laid off in a new way...

anyfuck, i might be offline til monday...... whatever. at this point i''ve just got to get my ass moving. figure out the direction later.....

posted by y2kira @ 7:28 AM 0 comments

ok, i thought i was losing it-- i told all my friends about my job and then nobody wrote back to me and i didn't know what to think of that! ....then i couldn't get my email like forever and i finally found a virus on my computer. backdoor.sindman.dr thanks to whoever has solaris on their server....

oh and a special thanks to these people:

recipient.2002203=hongfax@public.szonline.net
recipient.2002203=chinafax1@263.net

do you like my registry?


i'm still putting stuff into storage. i told him on saturday so he could say goodbye and all, but then my back went out and so i'm taking a few extra days to get packed up and stuff. i've got a lot more stuff than i thought. my atty should be back in town today so she might schedule something and call me. i'm still pissed that she says she can't get me off the mortage. now why would i want to be on his debts if i don't live here and i'm not married to him? everybody from strangers in the store to the insurance people say that in the divorce, whoever gets deeded the property stays on the mortgage and the other person is removed. they see it all the time. i don't know why my atty says it's impossible. besides, i don't want him to file bankruptcy 10 years from now and have HIS creditors come after my new house/car/life etc. DUH - if anybody has any information on how this is accomplished or has done it in the past, please email me!!!!!!!

i've been so stressed out. i have terrible insomnia .... been kinda depressed too...i can't wait to quit drinking (again).... alcohol really does cause depression. and stomach problems, and dehydration. god with my hormone imbalance i swear i need to be hospitalized if i drink too much during that time of the month ---yeah, enough on that subject....even i don't like to hear about it.

posted by y2kira @ 11:38 AM 0 comments

ok done w/ my random posts. ian thinks i need to go school-clothes shopping. he doesnt' realize that they're not starting until next month. oh well, i WILL tell him and let him say goodbye to the kids. and we'll come back and visit. if he had kept the computer i built him we could email constantly and shit, i mean you can get an el-cheapo webcam for like ten buck or so right? oh well his prob. anyway last night at karate, the instructor announced to the whole class that i got a job out of town and we're moving. jake was asking me, "Mom, are we moving?" i'm like "NO!!!!!" fuck the whole town knows now it's just a matter of time. I FUCKING TOLD HIM THAT IAN DOESN'T KNOW BECAUSE HE'D GET VIOLENT and THAT I WOULD FIND A WAY TO TELL HIM BEFORE WE ACTUALLY LEFT and he said "I wouldn't tell him anything." AND THEN GOES ANNOUNCING MY PRIVATE SECRET BUSINESS TO THE FUCKING WORLD. he bought jazz a georgeous silver yin&yang necklace and got the kids toys and gave them t-shirts and shit. he's really nice. if he gets a website i'll definitely link to him.

JOB

anyway--i've written a few peeps, some of whom actually asked about my job and people haven't written back...what's the deal?!!

so is my job description boring? or maybe i'm fucked to take a job so far away from my ex ...or where people might get laid off? oh i've got it. how could i get that job when my site sux so hard, huh? i've got other sites that look great, but my personal site is just that... "personal" and still in the works (like....forever...[insert procrastination]) and besides, i'd NEVER let any employer type person see it EVER so it's not necessarily a reflection of my design skills (or any other ones for that matter) LMAO!

too bad i won't be makin the big bucks, but that's ok. i'm just happy for what i got right now. i don't know, not like i'm expecting a prize but the "no response" or generic "wow" thing is kinda strange...

posted by y2kira @ 9:37 AM 0 comments

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do you believe lisa's trying to hit me up for a template update because she's too afraid to cut&paste a simple code snippet? meanwhile my site continues to suffer because i have so little time for it right now. it's not my favorite thing to talk shit about other people behind their backs (lisa) but sometimes i gotta vent without hurting people.
- i wrote to lisa and told her i'm too busy to do her updating. we'll see whether or not it "ruins the site therefore causing me not to be able to use it as an example of my work." jeez. i feel bad, but it's necessary. i wouldn't be too surprised if she takes it way too hard. hell, if i ever take up knitting, i certainly won't ask someone else to do it for me, and, basically, that's what she's doing at this point. i admit it might be a little different if she did anything for me, or even called me or fucking wrote to me once in a while other than the "multiple undisclosed ricipient" emails i get every other week about her latest car accidents. but i don't get anything from her. she doesn't even answer 2/3 of my emails. i can't help but wonder why the fuck i should do anything for her, much less help her perpetuate her site so it can get more hits than me!!! she doesn't even fucking link to me! (well not my personal site).

ok, now i've justified myself.

EDIT: DO YOU BELIEVE THE EMAIL I JUST GOT? SEE BELOW:

----- Original Message -----
From: Lisa
To: Undisclosed-Recipient:@gull.mail.pas.earthlink.net;
Sent: Friday, August 03, 2001 7:33 PM


I'm sorry I can't respond to each of you individually. It's been a bit of a dramatic week for me. I nearly died. I've just gotten home from the hospital today. I had a kidney infection. I collapsed at work Monday. They didn't find the infection right away and cut into me to explore. Took out a healthy appendix cuz the surgeon couldn't find what the problem was. I've never had surgery. I was released Tuesday and in the early hours of Wednesday morning I was a code yellow in an ambulance racing back to St. Joseph's Hospital. I've never experienced such pain and have been told it's equivalent to child birth. I'm on heavy doses of antibiotics and bed rest. You probably won't hear from me for awhile and if you read the door, it'll be dormant again while I recover. Knock wood this is the end of me and hospitals. I'll email more when I can.

and i thought the hospitals out here were bad.....

posted by y2kira @ 9:00 AM 0 comments

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i just got a job as the supervisor of the website dept. at a huge law firm that's running 4 or 5 other companies and getting ready to launch a huge new company of its own as well. i'm also going to be handling some of the trademark stuff because that particular atty needs a lil kick in the ass (or that's the message i'm picking up from the other people there). i've already got people apologizing for not recognizing my voice when i call ! what the hell is that? i don't care about that. my biggest thrill lately has been trying to catch the huge vulture that's eating the dead dog in our backyard (it's way in the back behind a bunch of trees but i can't find it so i think the vulture took it home)...

the kids & i will be moving to a big city, where i used to live in the late 80s. haven't told my hubby yet, told him i'm "just putting stuff in storage to get rid of the clutter" under advisement from my atty. will be living w/my mom (GAWD) rent-free and have flexible hrs so i can pick up kids from school (which = no daycare costs). i won't be making that much money, but that's ok because i bought a new imac for $299 (from a guy named jerry at sears) and will be practicing on it at night. then i'll be off to a fantastic high-paying job because they pay out the ass for mac exp, even freelancers are needed in the big city (woo-hoo).

went to see God, made my way to the front and he spit in my face! then very casually played a few more licks before he leaned over the rail to tell me "sorry." jeez, what a guy won't go thru just for a good shot of cleavage.

other than that IT'S A FUCKING SAUNA here in the south and my energy is dwindling. must pack must pack. my personal site continues to suffer because i'm still working on sites like planetaide.org and helping lisa out with "the door" from time to time (she gets more hits than i do [BITCH!]), in addition to working on logo, website, brochure, database, etc. for the new non-profit organization in my town to help victims of domestic violence. i'm a board member and on their finance committee, too.

anyways that's all for me. ...it's too bad we don't have some better way to deal with death. i think it's because we can't go together. we just lose someone, and loss is a bad thing. but dying is a natural thing. we really need a better way to deal with it. when i die, it's recycling time. no casket, no headstone, no ridiculous expenditure of money and NO CHURCH! i just want to go to the vultures and everyone must party.

posted by y2kira @ 8:54 AM 0 comments

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ok so i'm going to be the "executive assistant" to the owner of this huge law firm and i'm going to oversee the 2 guys doing the website work because after a month and a half there still isn't anything online. he's just started 4 or 5 new businesses (offshoots of the main law firm) and has a huge new business in the works which i'm also going to play a major role in. also i'm going to help with the trademark stuff because that atty. seems to be a bit lazy. doesn't even show up sometimes.

i have a feeling lots of people over there are just joyriding and i'm gonna be the one to have to give 'em their pink slips. he already told me he's going to lay off some people, but that he's really not good at it. uh-oh. that's something i've never had to do before. i hope it's not one of those deals where everybody hates me from day one cuz i can't take that shit - i'm too emotionally fragile.

the really big part of this is that it involves moving - me & the kids moving out of state - and i can't tell my soon-to-be ex (who's moved back in) because he will freak out and could get violent. he's also getting stuck with the house although my atty swears up and down there's no way to take me off the mortgage so i guess there goes my perfect credit. oh well who cares, right? so i'm sneaking all my stuff into storage as he sleeps because i don't know how else to do this. damn, "the real world" ain't got nothin' on my life right now!!! Divorce Survivor Southern Style new season coming soon on FOX wednesday @ 9:00! better version on HBO @10:00!

anyway i'm going to live with my mom (gawd!) and be able to work like 7 to 3:30 or so and i can pick up the kids after school (which is literally right down the same street. only problem is that my 4 yr old juju, who btw knows all her numbers and letters and can write and spell and work the computer (she even found juju.com on the internet like 6 months ago) won't be able to get into K5 unless i can WAY charm the principal because the cutoff is sept 30 and her bday is in november. jeez the dang SC birth certificate was done on one of those "brother" automatic erase typewriters i know i could erase the NOV and put in SEPT but hell then i'd have to change the shot records, my friend is a nurse tho so i could get a blank one. i don't know. i'm tempted but i think i'm gonna put her in private school for a year. it's cheaper than daycare for 3 kids so it kind of all works out. i've pretty much made up my mind even though i swear i could re-do the cert. oh well, hate to lie hate to lie. also just had to renew my car reg/driver's lic and don't feel like paying personal property tax AGAIN so i'm' gonna keep everything registered in this state, can't wait to see what kind of problems that'll cause me although i'm not planning on making myself very apparent to law enforcement where i'm going. it'll be home- school - work - that's it. work is like 3 miles away so i'm not gonna attract too much attention i hope *fingers crossed*

posted by y2kira @ 8:48 AM 0 comments